Friday, July 29, 2011
Day 3
So this blog is working already! I had no desire to workout today! I felt I just had too much to do! But..since people have been reading..I didn't want to disappoint. So, I threw on my workout clothes and threw on the same DVD and DID IT! I swear it was the worst of the three days! My cardio was terrible!! I just wanted to give up almost every time I started...but I didn't! I now need to work on my sleeping..I need to get to bed! :D
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Day 2
Last night was terrible..so I didn't get to work out until the kids were eating lunch! Ugh! But..I did it..I did the Jillian Michaels video again. As weird as it sounds, it's already getting easier. Doing the strength was a bit tougher since I was sore today but I did more cardio with less breaks. I also did more push-ups than I did yesterday. Yes, I know change doesn't come overnight, but I'm being totally honest! Yesterday I could only do 5 push-ups before I needed to take a break and do 5 more, and so one. Today I could to 10, then I stopped for a second and did 6 more, etc. I was proud of that fact already! Haha..funny day today though..I must have looked like exercising was rough because Haylee would look at me, very concerned, and ask, "you okay mom?" She did that quite a few times! And a couple times I grunted and Gage asked, "Umm..what's wrong mom? What's that sound?" Ahh..kids!
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Goals..
Thank you for the support! I really do appreciate it! I noticed that people both on my blog and on facebook made comments about short-term goals. My BIG goal is to get back to a size 6, but I do have a short term goals.
Short Term:
1) Work out 30 minutes a day, 6 days a week, at the very least.
2) Do my work out in the morning..it gives me SUCH a rush and much more energy to take on the day!
3) Eat as much fruits and vegetables as my kids do each day..and yes..they have more than I do..and I snack more than they do!
4) Lose at least 15 pounds a month for the next 6 1/2 months.
Long Term:
1) Lose at least 100 pounds.
2) Get into the size 6 I want.
3) Wear that beautiful dress again that Cory's been dying to see me in..
4) WEAR MY WEDDING RING AGAIN!! I haven't worn my wedding band and ring since Haylee and Peyton were born and I haven't worn my eternity band (the diamond band Cory gave me when we went through the temple) since shortly after they were born. I miss it! (plus we get some CRAZY looks when we are out as a family since neither of us have our wedding rings!!)
Short Term:
1) Work out 30 minutes a day, 6 days a week, at the very least.
2) Do my work out in the morning..it gives me SUCH a rush and much more energy to take on the day!
3) Eat as much fruits and vegetables as my kids do each day..and yes..they have more than I do..and I snack more than they do!
4) Lose at least 15 pounds a month for the next 6 1/2 months.
Long Term:
1) Lose at least 100 pounds.
2) Get into the size 6 I want.
3) Wear that beautiful dress again that Cory's been dying to see me in..
4) WEAR MY WEDDING RING AGAIN!! I haven't worn my wedding band and ring since Haylee and Peyton were born and I haven't worn my eternity band (the diamond band Cory gave me when we went through the temple) since shortly after they were born. I miss it! (plus we get some CRAZY looks when we are out as a family since neither of us have our wedding rings!!)
Day 1
Today...good day! I woke up and did Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred. The strength and abs in this video don't bother me at all..it's the cardio that gets me! I've got to..just GOT to get better at that! I will, I know I will. But danged if I don't need to get a knee brace for my knee that I had surgery on. They took out a lot of cartilage and shaved off some bone..so it gets painful when moved around a lot. The kids love exercising and are great motivation! If they are doing it with me and I stop for a second they immediately ask what I'm doing..or why I stopped..or if I'm going to exercise! Haha..I love it! I was going to do it with Cory again before we went to bed, but I didn't get to. My goal for tomorrow is to do it in the morning and at night! Thank you for the support my dear friends! I love you all!
It's about time!
Boy, oh, boy! It is about danged time!! I am bound and determined to do it..finally! I will be skinny and healthy again!
A little back story (okay, long)...when I met Cory it was February 20, 2006, and I weighed around 145..and wearing size 8...very tightly! I was very, VERY unhappy and self conscious about it. I had always been between 120-135 and wore anywhere from a 4 to an 8, very comfortably, depending on the brand of clothing.
Cory and I moved to Missouri that August. Although I loved being near my oldest sister and somewhat closer to my parents who had moved back to Florida for the year, neither of us really loved it. I started gaining weight..lots of it! I was wearing size 10, and actually cried when I had to buy them! (and I was about 170)
We got married and moved back to Utah. I started losing some weight but then I found out I was pregnant. I started gaining some weight then was so, SO sick! I couldn't get out of bed for more than a few minutes..and that was usually just to run to the bathroom and let it all out! I was given medication from my doctor so I would be able to function though I still didn't feel like doing anything because I was still constantly nauseous. I was 185 after Gage and Taya were born.
After my six weeks, I began an small exercise routine. Then I found out I was pregnant. I had so many emotions going through me that exercising was the last thing I wanted to think about! About halfway through my pregnancy I began to come to terms with it. However, I was warned to take it easy. Yes, exercise was good but I should not begin a rigorous exercise program because I hadn't been doing it so my body wasn't used to it, and my body was still fragile from having just had babies. I was 205 after Haylee and Peyton were born. My doctor has done extensive research into the rebuilding of the body/uterus after having had a c-section. He was very, VERY intent on the 3 month waiting period before lifting, doing ab work, or anything that would weaken my uterus and could cause it to split. That scared me..so I wouldn't do any of those exercises.
So after my 3 month hiatus, that still leaves me 6 months before I got pregnant again..and for those 6 months, I have no excuses! (well except for the 4 infants I was taking care of...) But I didn't work out much..except for taking walks..and that was rare. Cory and I moved twice in those months and though where we ended up was where we wanted, there were a lot of stress factors during that time that just did NOT help my frame of mind for concentrating on losing weight. I did lose some weight then I got pregnant. I was even more emotional about this one. And my thoughts and emotions lasted up until Alexis was born. I was 215 after she was born. Again, I had a c-section and didn't want to begin weight lifting or stomach workouts until after the 3 month period.
I started to gain weight from not working out..and was 220. I started working out and actually lost 5 pounds in a week..having only done my workout for two days. But it didn't last long. I have really WANTED to lose all the weight, but I am too scared to actually try. I have always heard that no matter how much weight you lose, or how skinny you get, you will never actually have your pre-baby body back..the pre-baby weight is possible, but the body changes and you can't fix that. That terrifies me! I want my old body back! (I even want the body I had when I met Cory..the one I was unhappy with at the time!) I have always thought it wasn't possible so why try.
I have since gained weight and I am currently 233. My pants are a size 20. My tops are XXL. I know I am overweight but I don't think I look 233..and Cory's face was actually shocked the first time he saw it on the scale (and if you know Cory, you know he can't fake it!) I am very unhappy with my looks now. I don't go out of my way to talk to people..which really is NOT my personality! I love meeting new people and making new friends..but not now..not being self-conscious! I am unhappy with my life..the life of a stay-at-home mom is not one I ever planned for myself..ever! I don't do as good of a job as I know I can do. It goes back to my being unhappy with myself. It's all a big cycle! One affects the other..and that one affects the other..and it goes on and back and forth..but no more! Today I wake up..and I am READY!
I figure if I make this blog..even if no one reads it..I will have to be accountable. I will come on each night and blog about my workout (s) and food. Now, we don't eat that bad..we are constantly having fruits and veggies..and rarely snack. My biggest problem with food is portion control. I will get a portioned size dinner..eat it..then get a second...and stop to do ten things for the kids..then realize I'm not hungry anymore. I don't want to waste the food so I eat it..even though I can feel it making me sick! Well..that's just going to have to stop! If I waste food..so be it! My health is more important!
In this crazy house of 5 kids under 3 years old, I have got to find some me time! I do a lot with my kids..but we do a lot of crafty, artsy things. Those things are easy for me. But I want to play tag with them for longer than a 10-15 minute spurt of time. I want to be able to chase these crazies all over the yard for as long as they want. I need to find this happiness inside of me so that I can find more enjoyment in them. I don't want to be this shy girl forever. I don't want my kids to be embarrassed of me as they get older. I don't want them to think it's okay to be unhealthy. I want them to be active, social, happy, functioning members of a society..as I am none of those at this moment in time! My kids don't understand that there are some overweight people or skinny people..or what's normal or average. But in the next few years they will. I know our generation of kids will have more than enough things on their minds and I don't want to add another one!
I would love to get down to a 120..but I am actually not too concerned with that number. I am more concerned with getting into a size 6. So today is the day..today is day one! Wish me luck!!!
A little back story (okay, long)...when I met Cory it was February 20, 2006, and I weighed around 145..and wearing size 8...very tightly! I was very, VERY unhappy and self conscious about it. I had always been between 120-135 and wore anywhere from a 4 to an 8, very comfortably, depending on the brand of clothing.
Cory and I moved to Missouri that August. Although I loved being near my oldest sister and somewhat closer to my parents who had moved back to Florida for the year, neither of us really loved it. I started gaining weight..lots of it! I was wearing size 10, and actually cried when I had to buy them! (and I was about 170)
We got married and moved back to Utah. I started losing some weight but then I found out I was pregnant. I started gaining some weight then was so, SO sick! I couldn't get out of bed for more than a few minutes..and that was usually just to run to the bathroom and let it all out! I was given medication from my doctor so I would be able to function though I still didn't feel like doing anything because I was still constantly nauseous. I was 185 after Gage and Taya were born.
After my six weeks, I began an small exercise routine. Then I found out I was pregnant. I had so many emotions going through me that exercising was the last thing I wanted to think about! About halfway through my pregnancy I began to come to terms with it. However, I was warned to take it easy. Yes, exercise was good but I should not begin a rigorous exercise program because I hadn't been doing it so my body wasn't used to it, and my body was still fragile from having just had babies. I was 205 after Haylee and Peyton were born. My doctor has done extensive research into the rebuilding of the body/uterus after having had a c-section. He was very, VERY intent on the 3 month waiting period before lifting, doing ab work, or anything that would weaken my uterus and could cause it to split. That scared me..so I wouldn't do any of those exercises.
So after my 3 month hiatus, that still leaves me 6 months before I got pregnant again..and for those 6 months, I have no excuses! (well except for the 4 infants I was taking care of...) But I didn't work out much..except for taking walks..and that was rare. Cory and I moved twice in those months and though where we ended up was where we wanted, there were a lot of stress factors during that time that just did NOT help my frame of mind for concentrating on losing weight. I did lose some weight then I got pregnant. I was even more emotional about this one. And my thoughts and emotions lasted up until Alexis was born. I was 215 after she was born. Again, I had a c-section and didn't want to begin weight lifting or stomach workouts until after the 3 month period.
I started to gain weight from not working out..and was 220. I started working out and actually lost 5 pounds in a week..having only done my workout for two days. But it didn't last long. I have really WANTED to lose all the weight, but I am too scared to actually try. I have always heard that no matter how much weight you lose, or how skinny you get, you will never actually have your pre-baby body back..the pre-baby weight is possible, but the body changes and you can't fix that. That terrifies me! I want my old body back! (I even want the body I had when I met Cory..the one I was unhappy with at the time!) I have always thought it wasn't possible so why try.
I have since gained weight and I am currently 233. My pants are a size 20. My tops are XXL. I know I am overweight but I don't think I look 233..and Cory's face was actually shocked the first time he saw it on the scale (and if you know Cory, you know he can't fake it!) I am very unhappy with my looks now. I don't go out of my way to talk to people..which really is NOT my personality! I love meeting new people and making new friends..but not now..not being self-conscious! I am unhappy with my life..the life of a stay-at-home mom is not one I ever planned for myself..ever! I don't do as good of a job as I know I can do. It goes back to my being unhappy with myself. It's all a big cycle! One affects the other..and that one affects the other..and it goes on and back and forth..but no more! Today I wake up..and I am READY!
I figure if I make this blog..even if no one reads it..I will have to be accountable. I will come on each night and blog about my workout (s) and food. Now, we don't eat that bad..we are constantly having fruits and veggies..and rarely snack. My biggest problem with food is portion control. I will get a portioned size dinner..eat it..then get a second...and stop to do ten things for the kids..then realize I'm not hungry anymore. I don't want to waste the food so I eat it..even though I can feel it making me sick! Well..that's just going to have to stop! If I waste food..so be it! My health is more important!
In this crazy house of 5 kids under 3 years old, I have got to find some me time! I do a lot with my kids..but we do a lot of crafty, artsy things. Those things are easy for me. But I want to play tag with them for longer than a 10-15 minute spurt of time. I want to be able to chase these crazies all over the yard for as long as they want. I need to find this happiness inside of me so that I can find more enjoyment in them. I don't want to be this shy girl forever. I don't want my kids to be embarrassed of me as they get older. I don't want them to think it's okay to be unhealthy. I want them to be active, social, happy, functioning members of a society..as I am none of those at this moment in time! My kids don't understand that there are some overweight people or skinny people..or what's normal or average. But in the next few years they will. I know our generation of kids will have more than enough things on their minds and I don't want to add another one!
I would love to get down to a 120..but I am actually not too concerned with that number. I am more concerned with getting into a size 6. So today is the day..today is day one! Wish me luck!!!
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